Monday, June 29, 2020

Remembering-- Part 2

Too many pictures for one blog, so I decided to do a second part to my last "Remembering Blog". I found it good to see what I had been busy doing the past several years on my blog. It started as an experiment in me sewing while I was on a medical retirement from nursing. I was in treatment for Chronic Lyme and so creating Little House served as a distraction during an experimental long term treatment program for Lyme Disease. 

My treatment involved taking Benicar in large doses to eliminate Vitamin D from my body, as it was felt that perhaps my body's production of Vitamin D interfered with my ability to fight off diseases that had been retained in the body's biofilm.  The thought was that Vitamin D acted similar to a steroid, and prevented the body's immune system to fight off low grade infections that tended to continue on. So low dosed antibiotics were pulsated,  taken on an "on and off schedule" that along with eliminating Vitamin D would perhaps cause better "kill off " of these various "hard to kill  chronic bugs in my biofilm.

Treatment was to last 3-5 years, though my regular provider was forced to abandon his patients and was routed to another clinic, so was no longer around to help me wean off this protocol in a safe fashion.  The loss of my provider in the middle of this protocol, meant seeking another quickly. As we wore special dark glasses to prevent our bodies from creating our own Vitamin D when stimulated by light and wore long sleeves, people in small communities knew all in their small towns who dressed like this, and made it easier to track down those in treatment especially as I traveled around to different towns in Vermont to sell my pincushions. In this way I was able to track down patients treated by my doctor and networking with them was able to find a future doctor willing to treat me further. I continued this Marshall Protocol using a second doctor in Massachusetts. My treatment continued for eight years total, so Little House  Home Arts continued on as well and my oldest daughter and husband  took over doing sales and craft shows in limited numbers each year. I needed to live in low lux light or wear dark glasses and the sales became too exhausting! My sewed creations continued and was the distraction I needed during this long-lasting treatment. Here are more pictures of my continued creations, truly my occupational therapy during this time! Fortunately I was not contagious and my sewing became a real blessing for me!

Pet pincushions.
Owls, blooming cactus pincushions, owl scissor holders 
that when inserted made eye glasses for their big eyes,
 ice cream sundae pincushions and a plain pincushion in a cup.
From pincushions to wool pictures with 
embroidery work.

More wool pictures with 
embroidery as well as
quilting.

Sunday, June 14, 2020

Remembering

Memory of days past are speaking loudly to me these days. It is one thing to lose something or even someone, but those whose memories have been damaged lose so much more than simply the present. Their past can be tainted and potentially rob others of the good memories of the past.

I am wading through much sorrow these days on many fronts. As I grow older, my friends are incurring life-threatening illnesses and even my husband has experienced a serious crisis that stopped me in my tracks. He suddenly shared with me that he didn't want to be married to me anymore after just celebrating our 40th wedding anniversary. It was devastating, but the more I thought about it, the more I realized that something was going on with him that wasn't normal. He agreed to seek counseling and so we are both in the midst of our own individual counseling. What is going on is serious and will require long term therapy, we have been told. Both my husband and I decided to not give up easily on what it has taken us years to build!

After almost five months, there has been what I consider to be a major breakthrough. My husband is appreciating that his past traumas are affecting his present life in a way he has never experienced before, creating misunderstanding in his communications. He just caught himself in the midst of misplacing his frustration and anger where is doesn't belong, corrected himself and apologized. This is a major!  My hope for his recovery is positively reinforced. His therapy is working and at a miraculous pace!! I have new hopes for a future I had never doubted before.

This last Memorial Day was sad as we couldn't celebrate the weekend in our usual small town ways largely due to Covid19 and all the changes it has created in our community. Parades and other social gatherings and small town events were all cancelled, but I am not forgetting  those that gave the ultimate sacrifice for our country, nor am I forgetting good memories shared with my family, though our proud history needs to be un-buried and remembered. I recall memories that need to be celebrated and rekindling hope that normal life will return in the near future. It has been a double whammy to be hit with the corona-virus pandemic and its social isolation all in the midst of our own personal crisis! To be free of both someday, will be huge, as I have a new-found appreciation for all the small things in life  that make life worth living!!

I have found it helpful to take time to visit the "fruits" of our marriage, being our two grown daughters and confirm that our family life was wonderful and real! They are my proof and tangible evidence! Many happy memories were shared as a family and they help to validate all we have lived through and for! These celebrations of memories and histories are so critical to the well-being of our country and the values we embrace!! What is occurring with us as a family seems similar to what is  happening on a larger scale in our communities, cities and countries.

In the midst of a rather complicated, but simple transaction on line, I found myself sharing with a total stranger, my history of creating Little House Home Arts and referred her to my Etsy Shop. Sadly I am so behind in terms of keeping my present creations listed, but also realized that my wares listed no longer represent all the different mediums I have explored while doing my on-line business. I went to find photos of some of my earlier creations, and found it very validating to see how our home was transformed into a house of multiple sorts of creations and thought you, my readers, might also enjoy some of the pictures I found. I am still not finding some I remembered, but was none-the-less excited to see our former days, not all that long ago, when life was simpler and thought you might enjoy seeing them as well!! These were some very fun and colorful days!!

Life  and stress has a way of wearing us all down and most of us are so blessed with memories  of  past days. It is important to take time to collect these memories about us during such a time as this and remember and hope that life will return to being less complicated, and with new-found appreciation for the small things that add such joy to our living! It is also good to remember values we embraced prior to days of this pandemic as well as days of relative peace, without rioting and so much civil unrest! Did you know that after the Spanish Flu, there also occurred much civil unrest?  It gives me hope that our future will have normalcy in it again, as our country has been through this before and recovered!! Do keep your hopes and dreams of better times alive and well!

I hope these pictures will stimulate memories of some of your more care-free, energetic and productive days or give you ideas for future creations to try yourself!! I will split them into groups and spread out my findings in blogs ahead as well! Enjoy!

Days of embroidery and needle-felting...Embellished wool
Easter Eggs!

Applique and Needle-felting combined.

No matter how small, detail work is fun...

And variations by changing colors for new looks.



Primitive needle-felting, my start to painting with wool roving.

Applique with touches of needle-felting.

And pincushions by the batches. A batch of fruit pincushions.

Acorn Pincushions.
Any design I could imagine...

Wait! An ear with pins, a perfect gift for
my acupuncturist with realistic first
treatments.
More batches of tiny pumpkin pincushions!

A blooming cactus and other colorful creations by the batch!

Blooming potted plants of all colors.

All making for a colorful display booth!

Even political cushions! Fun displays!

Potted Strawberryplant blooming!

More colorful blooming cacti!

My own patterns, though most preferred me to sew them!
How about a dog pincushion?


More of my needle crafts of the past to come in the next blog!




















Wednesday, March 18, 2020

In Need of Sewing Therapy and More!

I wrote in my last blog that I have much need for sewing therapy right now, but didn't know that the corona virus pandemic would complicate life even further! I have lived in a world of needed therapies, for many years now. I wrote much about living with chronic lyme disease, and so between various medical regimes as well as physical regimes, I work to keep myself structured with sewing, swimming, reading, and prayer to keep me as healthy as I can be. This last week the indoor pool at our local university just closed it doors to the community as a measure of controlling the spread of the corona virus. Not sure what I will do for exercise now with my physical limits, but am determined to at least do some of my physical therapy exercises here at home, as well as getting caught up on some housework!  My husband recently came to me and  talked about potentially leaving me after being married for forty years!!This was truly a "gobsmacking and life-altering" discussion! Fortunately he is getting counseling and after his first visit it was suggested he read about Adult Children of Alcoholics to learn  more about himself.

I had no idea that if you aren't a drinker, that you still need to consider the damage done by parent(s) who were alcoholics. Apparently the culture runs deep and self-alienation can start in very early childhood. I have taken to reading about children of alcoholics and the issues that they often suffer from and am also reading about the host of relationship difficulties that can occur later in life because of it. Often adult children of alcoholics open about their traumatic childhoods and bury their feelings, so it is not uncommon that many years later more problems arise. I am hopeful that counseling will help us both and that our marriage will be something that can be saved! I am still in shock but am learning to "take it all a day at a time". My readings have helped me better understand what is  happening within him, and we are communicating more about what has been wearing down our marriage.

I am a Roman Catholic convert and so divorce is not even something I ever considered and still don't wish to. Nothing is happening fast, and after forty years, we owe it to ourselves to be very careful about all of this. My husband is working a retirement sort of job and I am already retired and much legal work has already been done in preparation to try to hand down to our children what has been hard earned as well as handed down to us.

Both of our children have Chronic Lyme Disease, having gotten it from me in utero and we are wanting to be sure that none of this will affect what we were planning to leave to our children. I recently read that 75% of women who are chronically ill in their retirement years will be divorced by their husbands, though the reverse is not true. These statistics, I heard are even higher if Lyme Disease is involved! These stunning facts have made it such that I am more adamant than ever that their inheritance not be disturbed by any marital issues, as similar problems may happen to them as well. Marriage is stressful enough without having serious medical issues in the middle of everything. Lyme disease seems to be a disease that keeps on giving. My husband and I have faced on-going serious medical issues through our years together. It is a disease that is now unrecognized by the usual medical community, making all treatment uncovered by insurance, adding yet more stress to our family! As the corona virus threatens us, we feel more prepared than ever to face the challenges ahead. I have largely been housebound for about eleven years, though I am truly missing the few places that are part of my routine care now, like our local pool and swimming!

I remind myself that my husband's therapy is just beginning, and am guardedly optimistic that healing will come. Taking everything a day at a time is what is needed now so once again sewing, exercising, reading and praying along with seeking some psych support to change what needs to be changed will be the steps I take to support my husband and our marriage through this difficult time. He has now returned to his much loved seasonal job and my intentions are to not allow myself to feel victimized. I will be OK and will work hard to replace my fears with more faith. I realize that this doesn't mean that all will happen as I wish, but I will grow to meet whatever challenges this presents.

The ice on our nearby Lake Bomoseen is thawing and spring is right around the corner, which helps as it is a hopeful time of year! These pictures taken by my husband remind me how fast the seasons are changing, as these were taken pretty recently and the ground here is now bare, and the ice has mostly turned to water! All of my readers take courage as we all face the immediate threat of the corona virus! This time will pass quickly! Keep your "distance" and stay healthy!!



Saturday, February 22, 2020

"Never Say Never"...I am Back!!

Hannah came to visit me today for the purpose of reconstructing my blog sight as well as connecting my domain name back with my Etsy Shop and blog. Now simply click on "Little House Home Arts on Etsy" to the right of this blog (or may be in other locations in future blogs) to get to my shop from this sight. We are officially back in business!

Hannah, my oldest daughter and computer guru went back to school for her teacher's license, and over a stretch of time my business began to decline without her computer expertise due to her lack of time.  I have still been sewing straight out, but turned to making quilts instead of pincushions. My quantity of blogs lessened, as reporting on products was not so frequent. I believe I made the comment in one of my previous blogs "that photographing and writing about quilts in process was a little like watching grass grow", never mind that right now the grass is under snow and not growing at all!!

Hannah did get her teaching license and is near completion of her classes for her Masters. She interviewed and got her choice of schools in the area and has been teaching a second grade class at Fair Haven Grade School in Fair Haven, Vermont. We are very proud of  her and her achievements! Positions may or may not be continuous, and we anxiously await spring/summer when she will find out if her position continues or changes. She is thrilled to have had such a great teaching opportunity this year and loves her students and school!
Our first machine-sewn crazy quilt for my dear friend's niece.

Some less than great snaps of the detail work in it.

Again, a snap of how I personalized it to fit her personality.
This last year I made a special crazy quilt for a niece of a good friend. I started making another  pieced quilt for this same good friend, but suddenly she was having difficulty taking care of herself and was placed in a home for those with memory issues. It was a very sad and sobering time for me, who thought my friend would persevere in the same little home she had lived in for years in Denver! Phone conversations are less than adequate now and with a heavy heart, I started to create a new original Aboriginal crazy quilt learning from the first crazy quilt done on a sewing machine. It is both machine pieced and sewed, and mostly machine embellished and I am pulling out all my skills of both hand and machine embroidery, and applique work. My daughter, Hannah and I did the spontaneous patchwork very quickly over several brief sewing get-togethers, while I did machine embroidered wild animal patches for it, and later some appliqued patches of artwork adapted from Aboriginal art pictures off line, and in accordance to my youngest daughter and her boyfriend's interests. It has been loads of fun!
A picture of the first layout of this crazy quilt, to get an
overview of what it will look like.
 I ordered various trims to the blocks and then did machine embroidery along the patched edges. It is now ready to have the  twenty-five nineteen inch blocks sewn together and uniformly hand-embroidered along the seams with a heavy black pearl cotton feather stitch.
A picture to show some of the applique detail work done
 to personalize this quilt! So fun to  design and make!

Trying to match my daughter and her boyfriend's interests.

Machine embroidery used to embellish her crazy quilt!

Special animals as well as Aboriginal style fabric, machine
embroidery and braid used to embellish this crazy quilt.

I added various embroideries of each season that is so striking
about their life here in Vermont.

Of course some winter scenery needed to be embroidered
on it as half of every year in Vermont is spent in winter!

Its backing will take some time yet as I ordered The Gypsy Quilt Pattern by Jen Kingwell to create a unique backing using the left over fabrics,  many of which were Aboriginal designed fabrics we found at the last quilt show. It is a pieced sort of quilt but rather crazy-like and will fit nicely with the front when it is finished, which won't be anytime too soon!! That is alright as more sewing therapy is needed for me. I am glad to be back and hope that my blog will save many from taking time to write me personally to ask what is up with me? Never dull moments here at Little House!!

A little bit more work to do to make this for the backing of
this crazy quilt, done with left over fabrics used on the front,
as well as some personalized photos of my daughter, her
boyfriend and their special cat-child, and a special
dedication block to my daughter from her sister and I!